A love

"You know best if she for fun time or life time. If fun time, make her a bestie and NEVER confess, cause it's not fair you keep her from others that want her for life time. If life time, make her yours and CONFESS rightly, cause you need to trust your instinct that she is worth the risk and fight, that she is meant for you, before somebody else gets her attention." (Bestie, 2012)

I've got a friend, a girl, who I were once accidentally make her love me, and later I've broke her heart by saying I've someone that I love, and excommunicate for a year, even we were in the same class, which later brought her to her new love, which then later they broke up, right after a big exam, and turn back to me, as a friend, then later a best friend and finally a bestie; a loving bestie. She understand me as I understand her, we share our thoughts for years, and we know our behaviour. Thus when I've a  love conflict, she knows what should be said, she knows very well.

In this few months, I've settled all doubt in this heart, regarding the people who I put trust on, and the people who I've crush with, and I forgot how it feels to have no one in mind after that done. But yet, it feels like something is wrong. In all the people that I've a mind of, there is only a person that respond positively. Yet, conflicts happened. She put a serious thought on it, not to be a lover, but to be a legal wife. This scares me. To talk about marriage that I don't even have mind about it yet, make this mind suffering from trying to make a conclusion. I don't even see the path that I will step on for this few years, it still blurry, but then, the person seems to urge me on thinking about it. Then I realized, I've made a mistake. As my bestie would say, "Don't confess because you are curious, the girl heart is not something that you can play with, if you're not ready, you'll make her suffered"

A past that is a part of memento

"So, with this table you can design the shaft pin and crank pin diameter base on the size of the bore diameter and the length. Do you remember about this table?" ( Table is in Engine Design's lecture note)

"hmm, sir, I don't think that I remember this part, I don't think that I've ever learnt it"

"Who taught ED that sem?"

"Well.... Dr Vu."

"No wonder!"

He may not taught us good enough, at least, we have a good time with him. Haha, is it? =P

Empty

Sometimes I wonder, what would I became if I able to let all my anger out to the person who give me the need to be angry about. Unfortunately, I'm not a person who able to do that, yet. I do afraid of any consequences, though I know the explanations might lead to better solution. Another solution would be to leave the matters away. But, how far could I run from it? The pain is unbearable, and my silence just couldn't solve the problem. I couldn't count how many did I done a getaway to release the pressure inside, but it keeps coming.

It comes to be a decision that I could take to settle the problem. However, a good friend advised me not to do it as it would be too much to handle. He told, I must bear until the time comes where I could be as on my own. Waiting is painful, yet I give a wait, while making this mind thinks positively. Hopefully I find peace one day. InsyaAllah.

Quote

"It's no better to be safe than sorry" (A-ha)

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My dear,
The purpose of life is to live it.

And life is not found in the known, in the sure, or in the for certain – life’s found in the risky, the dangerous, the perilous, the hazardous, and life-threatening. For only by testing your life do you find it.

To be safe is to miss-out.

It’s no better to be safe than sorry.

And we must never be sorry.

Falsely yours,
A-ha

Source : http://www.quotes-clothing.com/no-better-to-be-safe-than-sorry-aha/

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Such quote, somehow is exist in A-ha song entitled Take On Me (1984). If you try to search it on Google, you will that the first page agree with that statement. It is totally opposite of the idiom "Better be safe than sorry". It may seems that A-ha is disagree with that statement I assume.

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Both quote are useful, but to certain extent and limitation. In life that full of risks, we tend to back off as we would like to avoid any consequence that we don't want to happen. But without taking risk, how are we going to know that we would be regret on our action? But sometimes, we really need to back off, in any such event would be that resulting to catastrophic phenomenon (ok, lol). But hey, there is always a solution to anything. So don't just hold yourself just to be safe than sorry. Take risk and regret later. Regret could also make our life stronger, as in quote "What doesn't kill you make you stronger".
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Footnote : My SV sees me as an experienced already, although I am actually not. This is just too much expectation that I need to handle. Many things that need to be done where I'm not given any guide to do it. Yeah, we already grown-up. There is no one to feed us like a baby. Haha. So now, I've to make grant proposal, but with just a minimal information, how am I going to do it? That's a challenge!

Toroidal Engine

Source : http://www.douglas-self.com/MUSEUM/POWER/unusualICeng/toroidalIC/toroidalIC.htm

This is a type of Toroidal Engine or also known as Swing Piston Engine. This one here invented by F. Beck, and known as Beck toroidal engine, patented in year 1910. 

So what is with this type of engine? It is a one kind of engine, other than the In-line engine that commonly used in automotive, and it is always claim to be given more performance than the latter. However, there are always problem in the fabrication, usually at the sealing problem. But, people never stop creating and innovating with the kind, although there are some engine experts that conclude this kind of engine will never achieved the same level as the in-line engine due to the disadvantages. They told that the disadvantages of this engine would be the combination of the one in in-line engine as well as the rotary engine. But, time by times, technology is changing, new people emerge into the society that could create better one. Such as Morgado Engine which is a small engine that could produce a massive power output. Although it seems that the product still not be able to be noticed in the real market, people are still not want to give up for such research field.

And this would be one of the challenges that I will need to overcome, as my project would be using this kind of engine, obviously with different design and else. Hopefully what I'll be doing would came out good, although I still don't know where I'll be in the future. Only Allah knows. We could only planned and predicted, but the best plan is deciced by Allah. 

Footnote : Looking to Toyota 86 which using boxer engine, makes me wonder how is it like driving that car. How would be the performance. Ho

Moral Support

Mood Lagu : A-ha : Take On Me

Master ialah Advanced FYP, mcm Add Math time spm dulu. ;P

Alhamdulillah dah masuk bulan Julai. Dah lebih sebulan dah bergelar student master rupanya. Namun, perjalanan masih jauh. Ni baru je buat literature review. Masih boleh lepak-lepak, tido bangun lambat, tido petang dan pelbagai. Agak segan kalau nak dibandingkan dengan mereka yang bekerja. Mereka sibuk pagi ke petang, tiap hari; sedang mereka pening-pening kepala, aku sedang dibuai mimpi. Heh. Perjalanan masih jauh. Tak tahu apa akan terjadi masa hadapan. Pelbagai yang dijanjikan oleh supervisor, tapi semuanya pun bergantung pada status projek. Gagal projek, hilang janji. 

Pengalaman master berbeza bagi setiap orang. Ada yang akan selalu stress, ada yang entah camne boleh hepi selalu, dan ada yang normal. Aku yang mana satu? Aku pun tak pasti. Masih awal untuk dinilaikan. Namun stress seperti FYP masih ada. Betapa payah nak berjumpa dengan supervisor yang selalu bermain di minda. Kadang2 terpaksa tunggu sampai berjam-jam semata nak jumpa dia, nak tunjuk progress. Inikan pula supervisor pergi training selama 3 minggu, terasa seperti tengah bercuti, namun dalam lubuk hati, terasa makin bosan dan bosan buat benda yang sama saja (literature review). Minggu depan supervisor sudah pulang, masa untuk menjadi serius!

                Student Final year 1st sem Lab ED : Are you Indonesian? 

                Me : Am I look like one? Why with the stereotyping of all Malay-like GA is indonesian?

Satu kelainan yang aku rasa bila pulang ke UTP ialah dengan ketiadaan kawan2 batch Jan 07 yang banyak. Tiap tempat yang dilalui mesti terkenangkan batch, housmate, classmate, kenangan dan semua. Tak ramai kawan batch yang sambung master. Ada tu ada, tapi selalu susah untuk diketemukan. Mujur batch Jul 07 masih ada. Maka adalah kawan sedikit kawan yang mampu mengisi kekosongan kawan ini. Tapi bile mereka sudah tamat semester ni, apa cer? Harap - harap boleh survive. 

Kekurangan kawan menyebabkan kurangnya moral support. Kalau dulu boleh la ada orang datang tanye pasal subjek ni subjek tu. Tengok orang buat assignment dan pelbagai. Lepas tu lepak mamak, ataupun pergi jenjalan. Semua dapat membantu membina semangat untuk menelaah pelajaran (bagi aku la), Tapi kini, dengan tanggungjawab sendiri nak buat kerja sendiri, tiada sapa nak paksa selain diri sendiri. Duduk rumah pun jadilah malas itu berlipat ganda. Risau tentang projek pun meningkat. Habes semua stress, risau dan pelbagai diluahkan ke twitter, dengan harapan ada dapat meraih simpati. Haha. Harap-harap perkara ini hanya sementara.

Tiba-tiba teringat kata-kata hosmet " Kawen la moh, baru ada peneman setia, boleh tolong basuhgkan baju, urut-urutkan ke sambil kau pening wat master tu. Heheheh"

Footnote:  Dr Azmi - "Awat sambung master kat UTP? Pergi la tempat lain pulak", 

                 Dr Patthi - "Wah dah sambung master! Congratz2 All the best!" ,

                 Dr, Faizairi - "Eh you ada kat sini lagi? Final year ke? Oh, master ye? All the best!"